miercuri, 22 decembrie 2010

About loosing and winning

The year will soon end and i sometimes like to make a balance between what i lost and what i gain during the year.
I lost several friends this year. They're not dead, but just they are out of my life. It is sad for me, because none of these losses was my choice, and with each and every one i have tried to make a mence. It's sad.
Instead of these lost friends, i have gained, in some ways back, some of my old friends, friends who have contributed greatly to the person i am today.
I lost a man whom i have loved dearly. I guess he was not worth it since he broke my heart.
Instead of him, i won a great man. He is so worth it..every day and every minute i spend thinking of him. I love you.
I also got some sense of independence, living almost of my own and thus being happy.
So, i guess my losses found their balance in my gains. Cause life is like that...you loose some, you win some.
Happy New Year!

joi, 30 septembrie 2010

Someone's care free careless life

But not mine.
Cause i have: job, school, new person to adapt to, and some more 10000 daily problems.
let's take them in turn, shall we?
Job: as i think i have said before i have recently started working as an assistant manager at a company from Cluj, which deals with digital maps. I, for one, have nothing to do with this part. I am dealing with all the accountability, administrative and human resources mess. And believe you me it is a mess. For me. I have always done my best to stay as far away as possible from anything involving numbers and mathematical thingies, but it finally got to me. Even though it is very hard and demanding for me, i like it, mainly because my bosses are sooooo nice and patient and they take things one by one and they explain why this is like that and not the other way around. I really appreciate that. And i think i am doing a good job, so far.
Too bad i can't really say the same thing about co-workers.
School: this week i have started my master classes...out of 3 classes, we had only 2. One of them was quite interesting, i think i will enjoy it,or at least read the books the teacher gave us. The other one....pffuuu..the other one has the potential of being a really good class, but the teacher...oh god! Even so, i am quite looking forward to see how things will evolve and what will i learn from this experience.
New person to adapt to: after some weeks of being somewhat of a zombie from an emotional point of view, i have met someone new and funny and cute and someone who is more well behaved than most of the guys i met. Actually, that is one of the things i like most about him and the thing that first impressed me..how polite and attentive and well behaved he is. Then came his cuteness and his way of making me laugh. And being the sadistic person that i am, i am constantly comparing it to my last thing....and to my satisfaction - for this one- and disappointment -for the last one- i find that this one is in almost every aspect better than the last one. I guess, so far, i gave managed to be with someone, who is not from the same pattern. He is not (yet :-p) an ass hole, care less or care free and doesn't seem to be the type who would step all over me. Like the last one. He is above and more. So far
And some more 10000 daily problems. which most of are in connection with my job. Some of them come from my own twisted pleasure of complicating my life, and some come from the fact that sometimes i care just too damn much about everything and everyone.

joi, 16 septembrie 2010

To my Grandfather, with love

This week, on the 14th, was my 22nd birthday. This year, on the same day, should have been my Grandfather's 77 birthday.

When ever i think of him i can not but smile. I have the most wonderful memories with him, and all about little things that were just among us. Like we used to have this thing called "the 5 o'clock slice of bread". It was so funny. Evevry day he used to make for the three of us - myself, my sister and my cousin- a lice of bread with margarine and gem or margarine and tomates, but he would never let us eat out side. He always said that not the kods have this and we might raise up their appetite just before dinner.

Every friday there was, and actually still is, this market in the center of the city, which was divided into vegetable market and market where you could find everything. And every friday my Grandfather and my Grandmother would go to the market very early in the morningand all the time they would bring us back this eatable necklaces made out of sweet ginger bread. They were delicious. When ever i see something like that, i have an instant smile on my face.

I have great memories about my Grandfather, but i think i will always remember the fact that even though he was a pretty difficult person, very strict, he loved with all his heart and there was never a thing he would say no to if we would ask him.

I miss my Grandfather. Especially this time of the year

Sex and city

I have recently started watching Sex and the City, the series, and i must say it is like a drug for me. I could watch it all the time...actually that is what i am doing...anyway, at least right after i come from work. Because, yes, i have recently started working as a manager assistent at a local company in Cluj, which makes digital maps. I like it, it is very new and completly challenging for me, but that is one of the reasons why i like it.

But anyway, back to Sex and the City. If you really enjoy the movie, it is really impossible not to start asking yourself some questions about certain stuff about which Carrie writes in her collumn. Like for instant, the one that has been bugging me ever since i saw that episode, which was dealing with the types of men we choose in our life and how in some really twisted way they are the same type. I really started thinking about this, and as funny as it was, i realized that wanting it or not, i have always been with the same type of guys. Guys who look really cute and are really great, until they break your heart in the most un great way.

I know from the moment i meet someone new that he is not good for me, but that makes me like him even more and so i dive in with full speed only to end up in the exact same place i was the last time something like that happened. It's like i have a problem or something. I like bad boys...it's sad, i know. The really sad thing is that most often than once i say to myself that the next time will be different and i will not allow to go to something similar again. But when that guy comes along, it's like i forget everything and i do it again all along.
Maybe it is because i trust people waaaaaay to much and even though it has been proven to me that most of them are not worth my trust, i still trust them...all the time. That is even sadder :-p

All in all watching Sex and the city has made me want to write again, made me question some more but most of all has given some really good moments filled with laughter.
I love Sex and the city

miercuri, 21 aprilie 2010

voluntarul din mine

Azi, in cadrul Saptamanii Nationale a Voluntariatului (www.centruldevoluntariat.ro) a avut loc in Parcul Central din Cluj, ziua veseliei. And indeed it was. Cred ca din start primul lucru care ne-a facut pe toti veseli si cu zambetul pe buze a fost faptul ca soarele a tinut cu noi si a tinut piept norilor care incercau sa ne incurce. Impartiti pe cateva ateliere- face painting, arta origami si muzica- volunatrii implicati au facut ca parcul sa fie un loc plin de voie buna. S-a batut in oale, s-a cantat la furtunul de la aspirator, s-au facut cele mai haioase face paintiguri si ne-am minunat de ce se poate face dintr-o bucata de hartie si putina rabdare.
Cei mai incantati au fost copii, care si-au asteptat cuminti randul pentru a avea masca lui spiderman , sau a simti ca prind aripi de la fluturasul proaspat desenat pe fata. E lucru minunat sa vezi cum copii se opresc din zbenguiala si pentru cateva minute il asculta si il urmaresc plini de interes pe voluntarul ACTOR cum le explica si exemplifica cum sa faca avioane de hartie, care mai apoi au umplut parcul...zeci de avioane colorate isi faceau drum printre baloane si frunzele copacilor.
Nu a lipsit nici o mica, dar draguta cafenea in aer liber, unde voluntarii CVCN, veniti prin programul EVS (European Voluntary Service) au stat de vorba cu cei interesati de acest proiect, impartasind din experienta lor, si explicandu-le pasii neecsari pentru a putea fi voluntar EVS.
All in all, desi sunt tare obosita, a fost zi draguta, plina de zambete si voie buna. Ceva de care aveam nevoie

joi, 15 aprilie 2010

De ce este Romania doar o alternativa pentru tineri?

Astazi, 15 aprilie a luat startul cea de-a treie editie a Simularii Parlamentului European, proiect organizat de Societatea Studentilor Europenisti (SSE). Aceasta editie sta sub semnul noutatii, fiind pentru prima data cand se organizeaza doua dezbateri publice cu teme de actualitate si care starnesc discutii la toate nivelele.
Azi am luat parte la prima dezbatere, care a avut ca tema "De ce este Romania doar o alternativa pentru tineri?". Dezbaterea, care a durat 2 ore a fost una foarte interesanta si am fost placut surprinsa ca participantii si organizatorii aflati in sala au luat cuvantul si si-au spus parerea.Intre invitati s-a regasit si domnul profesor Marga care a spus ca Romania e doar o alternativa pentru ca e o societate ramasa in urma, din punct de vedere al dezvoltarii si ca este necesara o reforma a clasei politice. Ovidiu Nahoi a avut o interventie care a starnit zambete in sala, afirmand ca este un lucru bun ca Romania este vazuta ca o alternativa, si ea este intr-adevar o alternativa pentru tari precum Moldova, Georgia si este o alternativa chiar si pentru oamenii din Vaslui. Ion Ionita a afirmat ca ar trebuie sa ne bucure faptul ca avem posibilitatea sa consideram Romania ca o alternativa, intrucat in timpul regimului comunist nu exista nici o alternativa, fiind un intuneric total.
Discutiile s-au extins spre teme variate, ajungandu-se la nevoia de reforme in invatamantul romanesc care sa asigure studentilor locuri de practica si internshipuri pana la faptul ca statul roman investeste in studenti dar apoi este incapabil de a culege si a fructifica roadele investitiei.
Din pucntul meu de vedere, cred ca tema dezbaterii ar fi trebuit fi usor modificata in de ce Romania este vazuta ca o ultima alternativa pentru tineri. Ma regasesc intre acei oameni viitori absolventi de facultate care isi doreste sa plece si sa nu se mai intoarca, intrucat aici nu mai e nimic. Oricat te-ai zbate si oricat te-ai chinui, nu inaintezi si bati pasu pe loc. Cel mai concludent exemplu care imi vine in minte este faptul ca sunt studenta in ultimul an la facultate si fac aceeasi materie pentru a treia oara, dar sub alta denumire. Si asta pentru ca Romania si sistemul de invatamant nu este orientat spre deschidere si spre diversitate, nu este capabil sa se reinventeze si sa se adapteze noilor cerinte.
Pentru mine Romania este doar o ultima alternativa pentru ca am vazut ca se poate mai bine, din toate punctele de vedere, cu aceeasi munca insa cu o recunoastere de merite si munca depusa net superioara.
Si stiu ca acum Calin cel mai probabil va sari si va spune ca aleg calea usoara si plec. Nu consider ca aleg calea mai usoara, ci doar aleg calea unde stiu ca voi avea parte de ceea ce merit si ce imi doresc, si voi obtine toate acestea prin recunoasterea muncii si nu pe baza prieteniilor sau relatilor personale sau ale parintilor.

duminică, 7 martie 2010

Prague, after 2 weeks

2 weeks have passed since i got home, since i left Prague and i left behind friends, memories and great experiences. I took this time to write about the whole experience in order to at least try and be a little objective about the whole experience. The whole Erasmus-Prague experience was amazing, filled with great unforgettable moments.
Living there for 6 months i got to experience a lot of things for the first time, like living in a dorm room with someone who in the beginning was a complete stranger for me, but who at the end i had difficult times saying good bye to; or learning to speak Spanish fluently, even though i have never studied the language; or eating "tortillia de patatas" for the first time and simply loving it. But by far the best "first time" was flying a and with a small airplane. Simply amazing.
I think i will never be able to forget the funny crazy spanish girl, whose english even though not the best, was willing to learn, and whose openness and kind heart brought us in the same room and we were able to live together really great moments. "Good morning, Cruz. how was the party?"
I know that if it weren't for all the people i have met, my experience would not have been even half as great. So guys, this is for all of you who have been a part of this. Thank you. It has been a privilege getting to know you all.
From a more academically point of view, I got to experience a completely new system and I discovered that with the right motivation i can go over my limits and reach just a little bit higher than i knew i could. And that is a great feeling. It makes your self belief go high and you feel good about yourself.The subjects i studied there were completely new for me and i felt with each class I attended I could actually say that i have learned something new and interesting.
On a more personal level, the Prague experience made me realize that I can start from zero wherever I am, as long as I don't forget who I am, as long as I keep an open mind and an optimistic spirit.Naturally, i felt scared at first, being alone in a new city, not knowing anyone and with no familiar faces around. But not letting all this overwhelming me I got to know great people with whom i experienced great and unforgettable moments.
About my Erasmus experience, i could write pages, remembering all the people i have met, all the memories i have made and all the funny things.Because after time will pass, the memories will be all that will have been left. And they will always make me smile and go back to our dorm room, and to the corridor parties and all the parties where we always had great times. As an overall this experience was simply great, hard and challenging, but one that in the end has brought out the best in me.